Growing up I was a skinny girl. I mean very skinny girl. Not to say I was anorexic or something like that because I was eating like a normal kid would. Also I was the tallest girl in the class and it made me very insecure. I was even taller than some guys in my class and it made me want to look normal and feel attractive. I had smaller boobs than any other girl of my class. I was bullied at school and I used to ask my mum why I was not a normal kid. I would look at myself in the mirror and feel disgusted and really unhappy. I would avoid parties, hanging with friends and taking pictures because I did not like what I looked like and the way people were seeing me. I would try to gain weight in the unhealthiest ways but thank God I never became real sick. I used to feel uncomfortable in my clothes and I started to think about plastic surgery at a very young age, and really if I had had money at the age of 16 or 18, I would have done it.
Then I met my boyfriend at the age of 17 and he would keep telling me how beautiful I was. I remember telling him that I would like to have a boob job and he said to me that he loved me the way I was and that he would not have it any other way; that if I ever decided to do it that it should not be for other people but for myself. Then I started to realize that first, not all the guys are interested in girls with a big breasts and second, that my weight does not define who I am. Being a good person matters more than having a good body.
Today, I am still skinny and with small breasts, but I look at myself a totally different way. I am truly glad that I didn’t get any plastic surgery because I feel like I would have not seen the true beauty that is in me. I do not mean to judge anyone that had plastic surgery but for those of you right who are considering it, let me tell you something: You don’t need to be perfect because perfection is boring and trust me there is someone who likes you for who you are and the way you are with your imperfections. Love yourself and start to see the beauty in you because you are beautiful.
I am very thankful to have a supportive family and very awesome friends who love me the way I am. I hope that my story will make you realize and cherish what is good that you have and be thankful for it.
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Lyne lives and studies in Toronto